ARE YOU LIVING?? ARE YOU??


Well.. Never mind this eccentric Blog..

Its just my frame of mind at this moment...

At the end of the day, when about to sleep... what is it that makes you look upon the happenings of the day and smile to yourself and be proud??!!!! Is it seeing people who care for u being happy or is it seeing people whom u care for being happy.... theres a suttle difference. Whether having ur way throughout the day.. people listening to ur views and nodding at every comment of yours makes u more happy or whether ur being considerate enough for others' thoughts and feelings takes priority??????!!!!!!!!

Is it more of a pain to see someone bearing a pain because of u or is it more painful to bear the pain yourself... can u swallow the pain pill urself or u r more comfortable making someone else swallow it for u??!! Will you bear it if someone wishes to share a pain that is a pain to yourself but you are not obliged to take it??!! Will you go off the way, way way off to see someone smile... Are you willing to barter ur day full of goodies to make someone else's day?? Is it a difficult prepostion for u accept a harsh reality or u like it being blind and building castles in the air?

If one gesture of yours makes someone's day.. would u at all think twice about it? And if that gesture takes a toll on u, would u then?? If that same gesture pains u to death but the fact that it can give happiness and joy to someone else incentive enough? In your happiness lies the happiness of people around u... do u believe it.. or do u accept it... or are u in an illusion... do u know its an illusion.... or is it an illusion at all??!! Would you not wish it be more real than a mere illusion, a devil of the mind...

Given a wish, would u wish for ur own happiness.. or the happiness of your loved ones, of people around you... Or better put, do u derive happiness from others.. or its your self above all else...

Are you Selfish, are you not??!! Are you happy, are u not?? Are u willing to live, are you not?? Are u willing to Die, are you not???


ARE YOU LIVING?? ARE YOU??

Well.. well.. well...

Finally i have a blog of my own... and my long standing desire of encrypting my thoughts on the webspace provided by a certain google.com seems to be on the threshhold of fulfillment!!!!

Its Saturday night.. past mid-night. You wait for this day eagerly ( since the net is on throughout the night) and suddenly I find this part of the cosmos as boring and uninteresting as before.. so what better to do than pen down ( figuratively) your thoughts and help the erstwhile Pyra labs grow.

Yesterday night was kinda weird, the weekend was just on the anvil and suddenly I find myself handling hundreds of freshies, who by virtue of being freshies are jobless and would attend any event happening in the insti, let alone something fishily named Project X.

After all the hue and cry, it finally began and ran into infinite problems (sand, stones, buckets and what not!!) Somehow the enthusiasm of taking up the first GA project seemed to give way. But for the considerate CORE, suri bhai... it was a worthless fruitless night. But the late night treat at Ascendas kept us alive for another GA day. So I come back to my room at 3.15 am and just about to crash when i see the post-it note screaming 'Cricket match- 9 am'.

Oops, i realised that the weekend was no more a time to satiate the hunger for limitless slumber, with a heavy heart, i dozed off and then somehow managed to reach the stadium at 9.02 am...

I was late i realised, by more than two minutes... my first 'real' test and i am late.. hard luck i said to myself and went on to warm-up.. and then came the moment of reckoning for me... I was given the brand new cherry by the captain and there I was, a batsman whose batting skills deserted him putting his cricketing future in a dilemma but this great gesture by the captain infused a new wave of enthusiasm and I seem to have met with my cricketer again.