Pursuit of Happyness

I am not good at this shit. The whole idea of talking about life and happiness gives me goosebumps. But this is one post I want to write now.

Happiness. It is a state of mind in which you find the world a good enough place to live in.

Over the past many days, I have been doing good work, great work. I have been good but have not been happy. I have always believed happiness comes from within and not from the external system. A thousand praises from others will amount to nothing but a little feeling from within makes you HAPPY.

I was discussing this with one of my good friends and she happened to remind me of my own words " Happiness is a personal choice. YOU can choose to be happy or sad only and the extent of happiness will be decided by the external elements, but whether you are happy or not is totally decided by one's self" I was kinda taken aback. It is pretty true I realised. But I still can't reason as to how I could come up with such a profound statement, that too long back.

That apart, I realised that people talk the right things but it is actually difficult to implement it all and walk along. At times, you know everthing that needs to be done, but seldom do that. Practicing what you preach. :-|

It makes me sad that I could actually think logically and figure out what happiness is and from it stems but am actually not able to implement in my own goofed-up life. At times I feel I can write a book on how to be happy and live a wonderful life. But inspite of all of that, I am personally not being able to be happy. Is this only a state of mind or just an exaggeration of the circumstances. Whatever it is, it is kinda prolonging too much... affecting various/all spheres of my life. I wish I could swear LOOOUUUDDDLLLLLYYYY!!!! I did.

I am being good but not happy. I wish to be happy; soon, very soon.